Write this in 30 minutes.

I already had blogger app to help me writing constantly to this blog, yet I barely touch it. Kekeke.

Anyway...

It's another night, a few minutes before tomorrow. What's the day? It keeps passing just like that. Sometimes I wonder what my life purpose is. I'm bored. Many things in life don't seem really interesting to me lately. Maybe I need new challenge, yet my old challenges seem to be unsolved yet. Or maybe I have another issue.

Sometimes I feel anxious and nervous. I keep worrying but I don't know what exactly I'm worrying about.

However, it's not like I'm not happy at all. It's just... a thing that sometimes cross my mind. I tend to overthink and not enjoy things as they are. I need to give some 'meaning' to my every action and experience in order to enjoy it. Yet, thinking and giving those meanings makes me exhausted slowly. Then I gave up. I just walk my life without thinking, but that makes me feel meaningless. So yes. For me, it's either being exhausted or feeling meaningless. (I have a complicated mind, which actually can be more simple, right?)

Actually after getting married, I feel better. Alhamdulillah, my husband is a really loving person. Unlike me, he doesn't overthink. He is a happy person and I love to be around him. I learn slowly how to enjoy things as they are. Slowly.

Maybe I just need some time.

Oh. And I see one more thing that could be my source of anxiousness: I am a person of target. Sometimes I burden myself too much for targets that are too hard to achieve, and I end up do nothing about them. I should try not to burden myself with unrealistic targets. Or maybe I just have to fulfill those targets to be happy. Kekeke.

So this is me blabbering about my life. I wonder if many persons in this world are, or had ever, feeling the same emptiness like me.

Back then in 2009, I also had the same issue. But I was able to overcome it by reading some good motivation books. Now, those books and motivating words are like boring things for me. They don't have the same effect. Maybe I should try to read new books, like romantic fiction, or comedy. Books that don't tell me what to do, but show me what the characters do with their life problems, and entertaining at the same time. :))

We were told to cross through zebra-cross

And I should say that I can't do that on this street. LOL. :)

I found them near my house. Such an amusement among the hectic life. :)

Mini Heaven

 

 

I love Cornetto Mini :)

After Office Hour

Feel so tired so I think I have to do this.

 

Heheh. :))

I see the world so beautiful, but...

I recently see the world so beautifully pink and bubbly and I'm comfortable with it. But some people are so keen on changing my mindset about it.

Well, to them, I just wanna say, "I don't mind if you have different viewpoint with me. I don't mind if you see the world as a place full of rubbish. But if you choose to think that way, the risk is yours. Don't try to drag me onto your pathetic mindset."

Perbedaan Surat Edaran dan Pengumuman

Surat Edaran dan Surat Pengumuman adalah surat berisi informasi yang ditujukan kepada sekelompok orang. Dimana letak perbedaannya?
Ternyata oh ternyata,begini nih:

Surat Edaran : 
> Memiliki background permasalahan, sehingga surat ini ditujukan untuk orang-orang yang terkait dengan permasalahan tersebut.
> Contoh: Surat Edaran BPK tentang Cuti Bersama tanggal 3 Juni 2011. Permasalahan yang dihadapi saat itu adalah adanya libur nasional kenaikan Isa Al Masih pada hari Kamis, 2 Juni 2011 (terdapat beberapa concern seperti efisiensi hari libur pegawai negeri, dll) dan terdapat Surat Keputusan Bersama Kemenag, Kemenakertrans, dan KemenPAN RB tentang cuti bersama. Dari permasalahan tersebut, dikeluarkanlah Surat Edaran BPK tentang Cuti Bersama yang ditujukan kepada pihak2 yang berkepentingan, yaitu seluruh pegawai BPK.

Surat Pengumuman:
> Tidak memiliki background permasalahan. Surat ini dapat ditujukan kepada siapapun, baik yang berkepentingan maupun tidak.
> Contoh: Pengumuman Lomba Foto BPK. Tidak ada permasalahan yang mendasari pengumuman ini. Siapapun, baik yang merasa berkepentingan ataupun tidak, dapat membaca pengumuman ini.

 

Contoh Pengumuman

Well, I guess that's all. Haha. :)

My Office's Library

I like to visit my office's library. It's on the second floor of Archive Building. I love the way they collect various magazines beside the academical books and the collections of rules and policies :)

Funny thing, I found this:

Hahah. Guess they also want to help their employees to be healthy and slimmer? :)

Oh My God

I just now googled myself and I found some of my "alay" profiles in certain social network...

*malu*

...

Okay. Don't laugh at me, please.

Sebuah hari dimana kau merasa ingin menyudahinya

Tak seperti 9 hari di belakang, kali ini waktu terasa berjalan begitu lambat.

Meniti hari tampak sangat menjenuhkan.

Namun tak apa, selalu kulalui hari dengan senyuman dan kata "Alhamdulillah."

Sebab meskipun banyak alasan untuk tidak mensyukurinya, selalu ada ketenangan hati setiap ku mengingat-Nya. (Dan sebenarnya, kalu diteliti lagi, lebih banyak alasan untuk mensyukurinya sih.)

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Oke, jadi intinya saya sedang melantur. Menuangkan perasaan yang campur aduk yang sulit untuk didefinisikan walau sebenarnya sangat sederhana. Tidak, saya tidak sedang dalam kesulitan hidup yang berat. Hanya jenuh. Itu saja.

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By the way, I found this picture in my laptop. This was taken in my high school year.

*It's my best friend Wulan Jayendra Iswari (blue scarf) and me (white one). We were going to attend the religion class and we're obliged to wear hijab. I remember I often forgot to bring one and ended up borrowing my friend's. Hehe. I never thought at that time that I would seriously wear hijab. But now I do. :)

Random, eh?

Hey, it's been so long!

Hi. It's been a long time since I blogged the last time. I miss blogging. Woohoo!

Well. I'm going to graduate and going to a new university. I hope everything will go smoothly.
Right now I'm still enjoying my spare time, doing everything I wanted to do since 3 years ago. I found that in these 3 years I had spent most of the time with rushing and running and I rarely stop or slow down the pace to enjoy all that I did. But now, I'm so glad that I can feel more gratitude. Thanks God. :)

Anyway, I was just coming from adjudicating a high school debate in Sang Timur Catholic High School. I'm very happy because I could see another round of debate. I miss debating more than I imagine. The champion and the runner up are from Sang Timur, while the 2nd runner up is from St. Laurensia (sorry if I misspelling the name). Congratulations!

Going to Sang Timur was quite adventurous, by the way. We (me, Tifa, and Melina) went by train. After that, we caught a public car a.k.a. "angkot". After that, we took a walk for some kilometers. Sang Timur is not that remote, actually. It's just, the "angkot" was hardly found around there.
Well, the journey itself was enjoyable. I could count it as doing sports, hahah. Soon after I got home, I felt strangely-gladly-exhausted. I drank a half bottle of Lemon Water right away. And it felt so good. Alhamdulillah.

Oh, I talk so randomly. Hahahah. Now, what about seeing my happy face? Hahah. Have a nice life! Assalamu'alaikum :)

Can you guess where I am? Hihi.

(Up: me and Vera;

Down: me and ADEM PSAK members)

Which One?

This month I had some photo sessions for these online shops :)

This is for LookAtMe Stores

And this one is for Kanahaya Online Shop

You know what, being a model is a job that I love so much beside being MC and doing presentation. Heheh. It feels so enjoyable somehow. Besides, it leads me to meet new people, see new things, explore new places, know new personalities... Aaand, I don't know why but after doing the photo session for Kanahaya, I feel like I want to wear veils... Maybe after I graduate :)

Just for Fun :p

Karena banyak orang tidak bertanggung jawab menggunakan informasi ekonomi untuk menjatuhkan pemerintahan dengan seenaknya berkomentar di media tanpa tahu faktanya, saya mengajukan mata pelajaran ekonomi menjadi mata pelajaran wajib yang diajarkan di Sekolah Dasar. :P

Repost: Kampung Ganjil by Jeni Wardin

I really like this fiction story... It is about an odd village which is lead by Sosilo Yudhi Bambangyono ;)
Check this out:

http://www.facebook.com/notes/jeni-wardin/cerita-berikut-fiksi-belaka/10150142953116340

Enjoying a glass of water

Saya capek. Tapi saya tau saya bisa melakukannya kok. Seriously. Saya cuma butuh waktu jeda untuk bernafas sejenak dan berpikir dan memperbarui energi saya. Otak saya bisa dengan sangat baik bekerja ketika ia sudah di-recharge.

But anyway, thanks God for every bless You give to me,for every opportunity to feel the challenge and to achieve things in life. Memang, hidup itu sangatlah nikmat :) terima kasih, alhamdulillah, thank you, xie xie, arigato...

Tuhan, maafkan saya yang masih sering mengeluh... Saya berjanji akan berusaha di atas rata-rata dan akan bersabar hingga mencapai keinginan saya...

Sabar. Ibaratnya, saya tidak boleh mengangkat masakan yang belum matang dari atas kompor. Saya harus menunggu dulu sampai ia matang, kemudian mematikan kompornya, dan menuangkan masakannya ke atas piring, kemudian baru bisa menikmatinya.

Hidup adalah proses yang demikian, bukan? Kita berusaha, berarti kita masih dalam proses, sebelum mencapai hasil yang kita kehendaki. Ada jeda waktu untuk menunggu hasil. Mungkin prosesnya memakan waktu lama sehingga apabila kita tidak sabar, kita bisa frustrasi karena tidak kunjung melihat hasilnya. Seperti menanam padi, benih yang ditanam hari ini tidak bisa langsung dipetik hasilnya sehari kemudian. Ia harus disirami, diberi pupuk, disiangi, dilindungi dari hama... Demikian memakan waktu berminggu-minggu sampai ia siap untuk dipanen. Apa yang akan terjadi apabila kita memanennya sebelum padi tersebut cukup matang? Tidak ada bulir beras yang dapat kita nikmati. Kita pun harus mengulang prosesnya dari awal untuk mendapatkan beras. Bayangkan waktu dan tenaga yang habis sia-sia karena ketidaksabaran kita.

Sabar. Itulah salah satu kunci keberhasilan. Raihlah mimpimu dengan bersabar dalam menjalani prosesnya... :)

Just for Fun

 

From left to right: Nanang, By Charles, Tifara, me, Andreas, Oghy

I always think that this picture is cool :)

One afternoon before Founder's Trophy

Seeing the past is just like watching movies... There are so many scenes that can be very interesting when they're combined. I so feel that life is somehow funny, somehow bitter, and somehow sweet at the same time.

Thanks to my bestfriend for kindly giving her time today. You know, that really means so much for me. At least I know that I'm not alone. It's always relieving when you have somebody to share and know that they are there for you. Your bestfriends are your treasures :)

By the way, I took my advanced accounting class today and found that I'm just so potentially smart *this is proven by how I did mistakes in doing the task given by the teacher. I believe that doing mistakes is the right process of studying.* :p
It's also nice to work together with new groupmates. I never had a discussion with them before: Ian, Brilian, and Yogi. -oh, I had been in a same group with Yogi twice- Frankly speaking, I really like to work in team. I love being listened. And I love listening to others' ideas. I like to know how people think and talk and act. Teamwork provides them all!

Well. Tomorrow is Founder's Trophy. And four days later is the mid test. I'll make sure they are all done marvelously :)

Sometimes, I envy those people who can share their mind through sophisticated writings...

Well, I'm still working on my writing project... I'm a newbie, I hope I can do it well :)

 

 Good night everyone. Sleep tight :)

Dazzling Tuesday

Call me freak, but I always get my spirit boosted up after Mr. Hatta's class. Hahahah. :D

Anyway, I just want to share something... About what I got today.

First of all, my classmate Zuhdi shared his knowledge about the concept of heaven and human's actions. The point of his words is, that the largest deed of human is his believe to God. He told a story, taken from hadist rasulullah, about a man who had done many sins, but in the end he ended up living at heaven because he still believed in God.
Hm. You can make your own conclusion from this story...

Then, I had an Advance Accounting class. It's about business consolidation. Then, I had a Governmental Accounting class. It's hilarious :)) I always like Mr. Hatta's class, for he is so funny and he frees the students to express themselves, in a proper path.

Saturday's Sharing

Being the MC for Copa in Action 2010, an event of New Accounting Students Orientation... Seems odd to wear long skirt... but it's not bad. Hehe. I'll upload the picture soon :)

The busy days have started... but I'm just getting used to it. Today I coach FT delegates. It's indeed a new thing for me, but I do enjoy it. Alhamdulillah. I hope the apprentices enjoy it too. Haha. :)

Good Night Indonesia

Alhamdulillah I spent today with substantial activities :)

Well, even though none of my lecturers come today, I do enjoy today.... with an essential talk with a best friend, a rehearsal for Nation's Culture presentation, a making of essay for Students Scientific Week, a debate training...
overall, it is a meaningful day.