I guess everyone has their own ups and downs. Seeing my old posts in 2011 reminds me of how positive and spiritful I was. Well, not that I change much, but I should admit that something has changed. I think I somehow lost a little bit of my naive thoughts. The world for me now is darker and more bitter. I don't know since when I have this thought. But I guess I know why.
Maybe I just put too much expectation and not prepared myself for the worse. I thought I did prepare, but I repeatedly feel disappointed. I thought I could fulfill my standard, yet I have to accept that people, and myself, have limitation. I thought other reasonable people will have the same thought as me, but I was wrong.
Or maybe, back then in 2011, I just haven't seen the world wide enough. When some people were in a difficult situation, I thought it was not that hard to solve... Yet, my thought changed until I experienced it myself.
However, even though this accumulative experiences is not sweet, I'm happy to experience it. It opens my eyes wider and helps me get a more comprehensive view of life. (Even though it's still far from "comprehensive", hehe.) Hopefully, I could learn to become a more understanding and wiser person. :)
Maybe I just put too much expectation and not prepared myself for the worse. I thought I did prepare, but I repeatedly feel disappointed. I thought I could fulfill my standard, yet I have to accept that people, and myself, have limitation. I thought other reasonable people will have the same thought as me, but I was wrong.
Or maybe, back then in 2011, I just haven't seen the world wide enough. When some people were in a difficult situation, I thought it was not that hard to solve... Yet, my thought changed until I experienced it myself.
However, even though this accumulative experiences is not sweet, I'm happy to experience it. It opens my eyes wider and helps me get a more comprehensive view of life. (Even though it's still far from "comprehensive", hehe.) Hopefully, I could learn to become a more understanding and wiser person. :)
